is a great song by chris brown [:
anyways lots has happened this past week...some bad...most good. I got to hang out with my friends alot [: homework at starbucks was super fun on saturday and then subrinas party was CRAZZZYYY and super fun of course...ohh beach on wednesday...fun-ish...i met a new friend...jordyn..oh but that was a brinas party..dude we are like the exact same no joke ahaha shes crazzy and funn [: it kinda sounds like im in love with her huh ahaha shes fuckin legit [: i pulled an all nighter with her last night we didnt go to sleep till 11 this morning ahaha soo awesome [: anyways thats the good part of the past week...the bad part i dont wanna talk about...it just seriously made me realize that for me...i dont think love exists...fuck love but thats just me..soo if you believe in it then im really happy for you cause that means youve expierenced it and i heard its great..but yea i wouldnt know ahaha...this year i am gonna dedicate to partying...dancing...living it up...and of course gettting good grades ahaha yea i know its gonna be hard but well i think i can do it...im excited to get my schedule..i really hope i only get 6 classes cauuseee i really dont want to take an elective :p well i guess i will find out monday...if the counslers are even there...anyways new subject...
ive realized soo many things this summer..that i trust people to easily..and man that is gonna change this year...from now on words are bullshit its all about actions...promises dont exisist cause no one can keep them anymore so dont even bother telling me you promise..cause youll prolly break it..everyone does anyways ...and fuck love up the asshole ahaha...it has been one hell of a summer...ive learned so much about people...and what they think of me...excuse me for having fun, im sorry im not skinny, and yea i am loud...but thats just who i am...well i can tell that this year isnt gonna be very pleasant at school..dont ask me how i can tell cause that would mean that i would have so say stuff about people..and i dont wanna do that...ohh another thing i realized talking about people is completely pointless and just causes unneccessary shit...soooo if you have a problem with someone just keep it to yourself maybe itll make life a little easier [:...anyways this next year...not gonna be pleasant..at least not during school...but man once the weekend hits ahaha forget about oa..live it up [: ahaha i say that now...but whats gonna end up happening is my moms not gonna let me go anywhere ]: poops ahaha parents get in the way of everything...well itll all be better once i can drive...YES! im so excited i get my permit in a month and then my license right before spring break...yes spring break will be awesome next year..cause alot of us will have cars and itll just be legit [: wow im really starting to ramble ahaha kaayy its getting late i should prolly catch up on some sleep...night [:
write more when there is more
peace [:
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Saturday, August 15, 2009
I think...this is...goodbye
well blogging always used to help me let my emotions out...so lets try it and see if it helps....
I cant do this anymore, i told myself i would stop, this summer would be carefree and no guys were gonna get in the way of anything, i told myself that i wasnt gonna fall for any guys bullshit..but here i am blogging about how i fell for your bullshit..dumbass me...anyways let me just get straight to it, i like you ok, fuck after everything you did, i still like you, but this is where it has to stop, im not going to think about you, im not going to text you, ahaha im gonna stop wishing on 11:11 (by the way it never works ahaha) i thought you were different...and your not. i mean yea they told me you know how to treat a girl and how you and your last girlfriend were so in love and blah blah blah but i guess..you just liked me for a different reason..the reason that all guys like me...but not anymore...its gotta stop..i dont want to waste my days hoping that youll text me its just over...thanks for bullshitting me...uhm well this is goodbye
write more when there is more
peace
btw...it helped...alot
I cant do this anymore, i told myself i would stop, this summer would be carefree and no guys were gonna get in the way of anything, i told myself that i wasnt gonna fall for any guys bullshit..but here i am blogging about how i fell for your bullshit..dumbass me...anyways let me just get straight to it, i like you ok, fuck after everything you did, i still like you, but this is where it has to stop, im not going to think about you, im not going to text you, ahaha im gonna stop wishing on 11:11 (by the way it never works ahaha) i thought you were different...and your not. i mean yea they told me you know how to treat a girl and how you and your last girlfriend were so in love and blah blah blah but i guess..you just liked me for a different reason..the reason that all guys like me...but not anymore...its gotta stop..i dont want to waste my days hoping that youll text me its just over...thanks for bullshitting me...uhm well this is goodbye
write more when there is more
peace
btw...it helped...alot
Friday, August 14, 2009
its been to long...
wow its been forever since ive written a blog, man it used to make me feel so good writing about what troubles me, so here i am again ahaha. right now im way to lazy to write about stuff thats on my mind cause theres alot but what i will say is that ugh summers almost over ]: what the hell im so sad it went by sooo fast...well i better get on my homework, ill try to keep this updated [:
write more when there is more
peace [:
write more when there is more
peace [:
Thursday, May 14, 2009
51 questions
Angie loves Jessica like no other. We're in Hale, and it's really boring. There's no one here. Everyone's on the bio field trip that we can't go to! booohooo!
51 questions
1. First thing you wash in the shower?
J: *does motions* like actually soap?
A: idk how else do you wash yourself?
J: idk i guess my hair (=what about you?
A: my feet! just kidding. my hair.
2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
A: *makes awkward faces* blue
J: red
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
A: EWWWW NO NO NO NO! NO NO NO!
j: NOPEEEEEEEEEE! NASTY
4.Do you plan outfits?
J: mostly
A: depends where I'm going
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
A: depressed
J: aww really?
A: no. i feel like i have to go to the bathroom
J: i feel awkward
6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red?
A: jessica's and mine's sweater
J: me too! (=
7. Do you say aim or a-i-m?
J: aim
A: aim
8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
J; Francesca was playing a softball game and there was a college scout who wanted to give her a scholarship. i was helping the scout decide. hahah random i know
A: i don't rememberrr.. ooo it was me going to disneyland and seeing mickey!
9. Did you meet anybody new today?
A: no
J: no
10. What are you craving right now?
A: a HOTT boy
J: me too
11. Do you floss?
A & J; yea
12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
J: turtles
A: St. Patrick's day
J: WHHAAAT?
13. When was the last time you talked on aim?
A&J: last night
14. Are you emotional?
A: when i'm on my red dot days
J: kinda
15. Would you dance to the taco song?
J: taco song?
A: what's that?
16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
A: when i'm trying to sleep
J: i'm too dumb
17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
J&A: lick it
18. Do you like your hair?
A: yes. no.......no
J: sometimes. i like it longer better
19. Do you like yourself?
J: most days. but not really
A: no
20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
A: yes. halle berry. sam from iCarly
J: sam from iCarly and i saw jessica alba
21. Do you like cottage cheese?
J: yes
A: ewwwwww..... yea.
22. What are you listening to right now?
A&J: Kyler's Eminem rap music
23. How many countries have you visited?
A: 4
J: 9
24. Are your parents strict?
A&J: not really
25. Would you go sky diving?
A&J: nope
26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
A: ewww no
J: nah that's creepy
27. Would you throw potatoes at him?
A: of course
J: nahhh
28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in?
J: no it's a dungeon
A: no except your eyes
29. Have you ever been in a castle?
J: yes. in vienna where marie antoinette lived (=
A: my play castle
30. Do you rent movies often?
A: no i download them
J: yea kinda
31. Who sits in behind you in your math class?
J: heffffyyyyyyyyyy (=
A: depends
32. Have you made a prank phone call?
A: heheheheh yea
J; si
33. Do you own a gun?
A&J: nah. angie wants one
34. Can you count backwards from 74?
A: 74. 73. 72... yea
J: yea
35. Who are you going to be with tonight?
J: mama
A: mama and papa
36. Brown or white eggs?
A:green eggs and ham
J: white
37. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
A: yes
J; nah. that place scares me
38. Ever been on a train?
A&J: yea
39. Ever been in love?
A: no
J: nah
40. Do you have a cell-phone?
A&J; yess
41. Are you too forgiving?
A: yes
J; yes
42. Do you use chap stick?
A&J: yes
43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
A: going to school
J; going on a lunch date with me (=
44. Can you use chop sticks?
A: no
J; yes
45. Ever have cream puffs?
A: no
J; yummmyyy (=
46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
J; most of it
A: omg yea so scary
47. What was the last question you asked?
J: are you serious? you're not gna be able to unlock the websites at school
A: who asked you to prom?
48. Boys or girls?
A: i like boys
J: hot boys
49. Last time you cried?
A&J: last night
50. Ever walked into a wall?
J: yes it was clear
A: always
51. Do looks matter?
A: yea
J; sometimes
51 questions
1. First thing you wash in the shower?
J: *does motions* like actually soap?
A: idk how else do you wash yourself?
J: idk i guess my hair (=what about you?
A: my feet! just kidding. my hair.
2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
A: *makes awkward faces* blue
J: red
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
A: EWWWW NO NO NO NO! NO NO NO!
j: NOPEEEEEEEEEE! NASTY
4.Do you plan outfits?
J: mostly
A: depends where I'm going
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
A: depressed
J: aww really?
A: no. i feel like i have to go to the bathroom
J: i feel awkward
6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red?
A: jessica's and mine's sweater
J: me too! (=
7. Do you say aim or a-i-m?
J: aim
A: aim
8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
J; Francesca was playing a softball game and there was a college scout who wanted to give her a scholarship. i was helping the scout decide. hahah random i know
A: i don't rememberrr.. ooo it was me going to disneyland and seeing mickey!
9. Did you meet anybody new today?
A: no
J: no
10. What are you craving right now?
A: a HOTT boy
J: me too
11. Do you floss?
A & J; yea
12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
J: turtles
A: St. Patrick's day
J: WHHAAAT?
13. When was the last time you talked on aim?
A&J: last night
14. Are you emotional?
A: when i'm on my red dot days
J: kinda
15. Would you dance to the taco song?
J: taco song?
A: what's that?
16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
A: when i'm trying to sleep
J: i'm too dumb
17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
J&A: lick it
18. Do you like your hair?
A: yes. no.......no
J: sometimes. i like it longer better
19. Do you like yourself?
J: most days. but not really
A: no
20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
A: yes. halle berry. sam from iCarly
J: sam from iCarly and i saw jessica alba
21. Do you like cottage cheese?
J: yes
A: ewwwwww..... yea.
22. What are you listening to right now?
A&J: Kyler's Eminem rap music
23. How many countries have you visited?
A: 4
J: 9
24. Are your parents strict?
A&J: not really
25. Would you go sky diving?
A&J: nope
26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
A: ewww no
J: nah that's creepy
27. Would you throw potatoes at him?
A: of course
J: nahhh
28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in?
J: no it's a dungeon
A: no except your eyes
29. Have you ever been in a castle?
J: yes. in vienna where marie antoinette lived (=
A: my play castle
30. Do you rent movies often?
A: no i download them
J: yea kinda
31. Who sits in behind you in your math class?
J: heffffyyyyyyyyyy (=
A: depends
32. Have you made a prank phone call?
A: heheheheh yea
J; si
33. Do you own a gun?
A&J: nah. angie wants one
34. Can you count backwards from 74?
A: 74. 73. 72... yea
J: yea
35. Who are you going to be with tonight?
J: mama
A: mama and papa
36. Brown or white eggs?
A:green eggs and ham
J: white
37. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
A: yes
J; nah. that place scares me
38. Ever been on a train?
A&J: yea
39. Ever been in love?
A: no
J: nah
40. Do you have a cell-phone?
A&J; yess
41. Are you too forgiving?
A: yes
J; yes
42. Do you use chap stick?
A&J: yes
43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
A: going to school
J; going on a lunch date with me (=
44. Can you use chop sticks?
A: no
J; yes
45. Ever have cream puffs?
A: no
J; yummmyyy (=
46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
J; most of it
A: omg yea so scary
47. What was the last question you asked?
J: are you serious? you're not gna be able to unlock the websites at school
A: who asked you to prom?
48. Boys or girls?
A: i like boys
J: hot boys
49. Last time you cried?
A&J: last night
50. Ever walked into a wall?
J: yes it was clear
A: always
51. Do looks matter?
A: yea
J; sometimes
Thursday, May 7, 2009
R.I.P
it finally sunk in...hes gone forever
ill never see him again
all i have left are the memories that he left behind
the ones that will never leave my mind
This ones for you Tio Max:
thanks for everything youve ever done for my mom and I
you were such a great uncle, i remenber you bought me lion king when my mom wouldnt
you took me to school in the morning when my mom didnt wanna wake up early
yo bought me the ciara cd because she was my favorite singer
you were always straight up you never needed to lie to impress other people
you were real, you told it how it was, and you were just an amazing person
i wish you didnt have to leave us
i wish your time wasnt now
throughout these past couple of days everyone has just been telling me that your in a better place, and that you dont feel anymore pain and that everyones time has to come and yours just came now
but to tell you the truth im kind of jealous of you
you get to leave this world, its bitterness, its fighting, the struggle for survival instead
you get to be up there happy and with andres
say hi to him for me
i reallly miss him
he was an amazing cousin
i hope you really are in a better place
with grandma, and grandpa, with tia mirrian and of course andres
we miss you so much though
and i cant wait to see you one day when my time comes
i love you and like my best friend said
im going to be down here, living my life the best possible way
to honor you and the time you spent here with us
thanks for everything youve done for us
your an amazing person, brother, uncle, dad just everything
we'll never forget you and your accomplishments, and i thank god that i got to meet you before you left
i love you
ill never see him again
all i have left are the memories that he left behind
the ones that will never leave my mind
This ones for you Tio Max:
thanks for everything youve ever done for my mom and I
you were such a great uncle, i remenber you bought me lion king when my mom wouldnt
you took me to school in the morning when my mom didnt wanna wake up early
yo bought me the ciara cd because she was my favorite singer
you were always straight up you never needed to lie to impress other people
you were real, you told it how it was, and you were just an amazing person
i wish you didnt have to leave us
i wish your time wasnt now
throughout these past couple of days everyone has just been telling me that your in a better place, and that you dont feel anymore pain and that everyones time has to come and yours just came now
but to tell you the truth im kind of jealous of you
you get to leave this world, its bitterness, its fighting, the struggle for survival instead
you get to be up there happy and with andres
say hi to him for me
i reallly miss him
he was an amazing cousin
i hope you really are in a better place
with grandma, and grandpa, with tia mirrian and of course andres
we miss you so much though
and i cant wait to see you one day when my time comes
i love you and like my best friend said
im going to be down here, living my life the best possible way
to honor you and the time you spent here with us
thanks for everything youve done for us
your an amazing person, brother, uncle, dad just everything
we'll never forget you and your accomplishments, and i thank god that i got to meet you before you left
i love you
Thursday, April 30, 2009
My Darling, You
CST'S ARE OVER!!!!
poops ]:
i loved the schedule and the tests were easy peasy lemon squeezy [:
next week it will be regular schedule yay...NOT ahaha
so today was a very good day...somewhat ahaha
the beginning was fun i love my cluster ahahaha soojee i freaking love you <3
she planned all the food stuf she drew totally awwesome people...shes just freaking amazing <3
to soojee: Thanks for everything you do for our cluster...we'd be boring without you[;
anyways ahaha spanish...was super fun i found out something that just made my day im soooo happppyyyy [;
i just wanna bounce off the walls and yea just smile hahahaa that didnt make sense did it
and then after well math wasss gay
i ripped my paper 3 freaking times ]:
so im super behind now....w.e
yea then choir was whatever
and then after school.....i lost the bet ]:
but hey things could happen in 20 days
but i doubt it ]:
hahaha its kay
well yea thats about it
i hope tomorrow will be a good day as well
sandlot in cluster yay [:
well gotta get to my essay
write more when there is more
peace [:
poops ]:
i loved the schedule and the tests were easy peasy lemon squeezy [:
next week it will be regular schedule yay...NOT ahaha
so today was a very good day...somewhat ahaha
the beginning was fun i love my cluster ahahaha soojee i freaking love you <3
she planned all the food stuf she drew totally awwesome people...shes just freaking amazing <3
to soojee: Thanks for everything you do for our cluster...we'd be boring without you[;
anyways ahaha spanish...was super fun i found out something that just made my day im soooo happppyyyy [;
i just wanna bounce off the walls and yea just smile hahahaa that didnt make sense did it
and then after well math wasss gay
i ripped my paper 3 freaking times ]:
so im super behind now....w.e
yea then choir was whatever
and then after school.....i lost the bet ]:
but hey things could happen in 20 days
but i doubt it ]:
hahaha its kay
well yea thats about it
i hope tomorrow will be a good day as well
sandlot in cluster yay [:
well gotta get to my essay
write more when there is more
peace [:
Sunday, April 26, 2009
shes so lucky
it was a super fun weekend
starting friday
went to go eat with dip and alex, that was fun fun fun [:
mmm....i love Dairy Queen [:
then saturday i had a saturday school but it was aiight cause i got a chance to do homework so taht was coooolll afterwards arantxa, alyssa, tasha and katrina were making a commercial thingy ahahahaha it was funnaayyyyy then they left
and my mommy took forever to pick me up
then i went to knotts with dip and devyn
then we ran into tyler
and so we hung out with him and his friend
that was fuunnn
before that though
we went on riptide
and i forgot to take off my flats so i took them off while the ride was about to take off and i held them....cause you know i didnt want them to fall off....so then the incredibly hot worker...wesly...told me to drop them on the platform....so i did....BUT...i missed and the other one fell in the water for those of you that have never been on the ride... heres a picture i think its on the left somewhere like on the top??? idk hahaha theres but yea where the water is being squirted theres a pool of water and it fell in there and i had to wait 30 minutes for the people to get it out it sucked...but its kay i got to stare at the hot guy....man he was sexxyyy [: but then he left ]: its kay though ahahaha he kept making fun of me
then we met up with tyler and yea
ahaha me and ryan (one of the workers and tylers friends friend) went on parolous plunge at like 8 at night....ahahaha TWICE...i got soaked and was freezing the rest of the night but it was totally worth it i love that ride [:
then excelerator broke down TWICE
and both times we were in front and about to go on
ahahahahahahahahhaa it sucked...
then we went home
man me and dip were supperrrr tired
ahahaha and hungry (well i was)
OH WAIT I FORGOT
tyler and his friend won me and dip a pig EACH [:
and then his friend won me a teddy bear [: he wass supper nice [:
well yea...it was super fun cept ugh the whole time i couldnt help wishing it was...someone else...just like seeing the couples there and everything...it was kinda depressing and like the whole time i was just like...if only he was here...omg this reminds me of him....ugh it sucks its like i can never have fully one hundred percent fun unless hes there...which is so stupid because ugh im supposed to be over it...im supposed to not care....you know the song..you got it bad by usher..yea thats how i feel...and if youve never heard the song..well idk go look it up on youtube...but yea its stupid...im stupid...ugh i wish life was easy...you like him he likes you...bam just like that but nope there always has to be a challange...there always has to be heartache in the end...but idk one day
ahaha
well today i was thinking about god...ok im NOT atheist but idk people are always saying how the best things happen to people who believe in god and youll be more successful through god...but i mean some atheists have it better than alot of super believers of god...idk i still believe in him...hes done so much for me...but sometimes i cant help but have my doubts....but like my mommy always says "he does whats best for you" but yea thats about it for today nothing else to really say gots to get to homework
write more when there is more
peace [:
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Love is just the best thing of us now
today was a kick back day
fun fun fun
[:
i made a cake
and made chocolate frosting from scratch
it was delicious if i do say so myself
[:
annddd i didnt burn the house down hahahaha im getting good at cookinng
man so the last couple days have been fun
thursday was the beach party
as everyone has been talking about it in their blogs
it wasss ffuuuuuunnnnnnnnnnnnn
i love bonfires
so relaxing
hahaha volleyball was fuunnn
hahahaahahaa poor nobel was trying to be all serious about it
hahaha our poor guys got schooled at football by cypress
its kaaayy guys
good try [:
yea it was super fun
cept i had to leave early ]:
and of course my freaking dad had to kill everything
]:
oh well it was fun while it lasted [:
kay well then friday i went to the mall with alex
there was the cutest guy working at forever 21
im talking sseeeexxxyyy [:
cept his hair was a little to long
hahaa and he was like 18
and had a pretty nasty cold sore on his lip
actually he wasnt that sexy ahahahaha
his eyes were though [:
well after the mall
we went to jeremeys parttaaayyy
fun stuff
im terrible at ping pong
kevin is like freaking pro status though ahahaha
oh i watched cheska dip and devyn do the hoedown thingy
hahaha you guys did it better than miley
congrats [:
haahahahahahaha
i hope you didnt get in trouble jeremey ]:
and thanks it was a super fun party
hahaha
tim and chris singing on rockband
crazzzyyy stuff man and freaking hilarious
well yea thats about it
tomorrow is all homework day
BOOO ]:
im so behind
i think im the only one who hasnt started on homework
hahaha
thats about it for now
write more when there is more
PEACE [;
fun fun fun
[:
i made a cake
and made chocolate frosting from scratch
it was delicious if i do say so myself
[:
annddd i didnt burn the house down hahahaha im getting good at cookinng
man so the last couple days have been fun
thursday was the beach party
as everyone has been talking about it in their blogs
it wasss ffuuuuuunnnnnnnnnnnnn
i love bonfires
so relaxing
hahaha volleyball was fuunnn
hahahaahahaa poor nobel was trying to be all serious about it
hahaha our poor guys got schooled at football by cypress
its kaaayy guys
good try [:
yea it was super fun
cept i had to leave early ]:
and of course my freaking dad had to kill everything
]:
oh well it was fun while it lasted [:
kay well then friday i went to the mall with alex
there was the cutest guy working at forever 21
im talking sseeeexxxyyy [:
cept his hair was a little to long
hahaa and he was like 18
and had a pretty nasty cold sore on his lip
actually he wasnt that sexy ahahahaha
his eyes were though [:
well after the mall
we went to jeremeys parttaaayyy
fun stuff
im terrible at ping pong
kevin is like freaking pro status though ahahaha
oh i watched cheska dip and devyn do the hoedown thingy
hahaha you guys did it better than miley
congrats [:
haahahahahahaha
i hope you didnt get in trouble jeremey ]:
and thanks it was a super fun party
hahaha
tim and chris singing on rockband
crazzzyyy stuff man and freaking hilarious
well yea thats about it
tomorrow is all homework day
BOOO ]:
im so behind
i think im the only one who hasnt started on homework
hahaha
thats about it for now
write more when there is more
PEACE [;
Thursday, April 9, 2009
I Will Be Right Here Waiting
today was a terrible day
i started the day off with hale -____-
i got a freaking saturday and some other things happened in the office
but lets not talk about that
then the 5k it was whatever i guesss
not that bad
then math
easy but boring
then the speeches
yea
idk
it was just a bad day
my back is killing me
so is my shoulder
i have a headache :/
practice wasnt that bad i guess
man
i feel so stupid
im struggling so much right now
i dont think i can do it
sports and then homework
am i the only one
cause it seems like that
my grades are terrible
ugh
i try
i do my homework
but im just so tired
no matter how long i sleep for
im still hella tired
i mean ok i took a 2 hour nap today
but im still super sleepy
and i have homework to do ]:
ugh
and to top it all off
i cant find my freaking phone
i wanna cry
i dont remember where i put it
thats been happening alot
i forget things alot
like idk
fuck
my mom is gonna kill me
damn....
not a good day at all
the only good thing is spring break
well thats about it
write more when there is more
peace
i started the day off with hale -____-
i got a freaking saturday and some other things happened in the office
but lets not talk about that
then the 5k it was whatever i guesss
not that bad
then math
easy but boring
then the speeches
yea
idk
it was just a bad day
my back is killing me
so is my shoulder
i have a headache :/
practice wasnt that bad i guess
man
i feel so stupid
im struggling so much right now
i dont think i can do it
sports and then homework
am i the only one
cause it seems like that
my grades are terrible
ugh
i try
i do my homework
but im just so tired
no matter how long i sleep for
im still hella tired
i mean ok i took a 2 hour nap today
but im still super sleepy
and i have homework to do ]:
ugh
and to top it all off
i cant find my freaking phone
i wanna cry
i dont remember where i put it
thats been happening alot
i forget things alot
like idk
fuck
my mom is gonna kill me
damn....
not a good day at all
the only good thing is spring break
well thats about it
write more when there is more
peace
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
When I walk outside
at night and the stars are shining bright
i just wanna never move
we hardly ever get to see the stars now :/
i hate it cause idk why but when i look up at the stars
just shining bright
it gives me...hope i guess you could say
ahahaha
yea monday i walked outside at night and just glanced up and there they were
a million of those stars up there
it just made me feel good inside ya know?
hahaha
im weird
well anyways
this week is going by sooooo slow
ahhh
monday was terrible :/
i stayed up till 2 doing homework
:O
haha who knew i had it in me
hahaha
tuesday was the swim meet
man
those guys were suuupppaaaahhhh hot
hahahaha
the ones from water polo at least
i did pretty bad
man i suck at swimming
like im terrible
today alison taught me like the technique
hahaha
i was waaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy off
thanks alison <3
hopefully thatll make me somewhat faster
hahaha
head down and straight
rotation
shark fin
[;
got it
haha
thats my check off list for when im swimming
tomorrow are the speeches
man
good luck to everyone [:
may the best man or woMAN win hahaha
[;
well yea things have been going better i guess
like whatever
i dont fight as much with my parents anymore
but of course theres the occasional fight
its whatever
i have a doctors appointment next thursday i think
my mom made it cause shes worried that i get headaches everyday
i dont wanna go
im scared
like of what it could be
causee today i got one bad
like terrible
and then yesterday i had one to
but it wasnt that bad
it lasted about an hour so yea
monday was insane
it hurrrtt sooooooo bad
i hope its nothing
but im still worried
yeeaaa
theres alot of built up emotion in me
and i havent really been able to tlak to my friends
cause ive just been so freaking busy
so im letting it all out right here
haha
well yea
hopefully everything turns out good on thursday
spring break whoo i cant wait
time to sleep YES
it came at a good year
i need to catch up on my sleeping
i wanna have plans like every day
so lets make plans guys [;
man...
i need to think
long and hard about my life
or i just need someone to talk to
someone that i can just let it aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllll out to
someone that will give me advice
someone to be honest with me
hard to find people like that
yea
hahaha
ok so like 3 months ago hahahaha
i watched the movie Troy
amazing movie btw
kinda hard to keep up with
but amazing none the less
ok yea i know it was a long time ago
but there was this line that i heard in it
at it was just a line that really like stuck with me
ya know?
like i was thinking about it today
and i was just like wow
intense stuff
well the line was
"Even enemies can show respect"
like no biggie but idk
just really stuck with me
its a good quote i think
wow ive written alot
for those of you still reading this
wow
hahahahahaha
you must
a)be super bored
b)have no life
c)procrastinating on homework
d)really care
orrrr
e)all of the above
hahaha
take your pick
aiiight well thats all for tonight
write more when there is more
peace [:
i just wanna never move
we hardly ever get to see the stars now :/
i hate it cause idk why but when i look up at the stars
just shining bright
it gives me...hope i guess you could say
ahahaha
yea monday i walked outside at night and just glanced up and there they were
a million of those stars up there
it just made me feel good inside ya know?
hahaha
im weird
well anyways
this week is going by sooooo slow
ahhh
monday was terrible :/
i stayed up till 2 doing homework
:O
haha who knew i had it in me
hahaha
tuesday was the swim meet
man
those guys were suuupppaaaahhhh hot
hahahaha
the ones from water polo at least
i did pretty bad
man i suck at swimming
like im terrible
today alison taught me like the technique
hahaha
i was waaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy off
thanks alison <3
hopefully thatll make me somewhat faster
hahaha
head down and straight
rotation
shark fin
[;
got it
haha
thats my check off list for when im swimming
tomorrow are the speeches
man
good luck to everyone [:
may the best man or woMAN win hahaha
[;
well yea things have been going better i guess
like whatever
i dont fight as much with my parents anymore
but of course theres the occasional fight
its whatever
i have a doctors appointment next thursday i think
my mom made it cause shes worried that i get headaches everyday
i dont wanna go
im scared
like of what it could be
causee today i got one bad
like terrible
and then yesterday i had one to
but it wasnt that bad
it lasted about an hour so yea
monday was insane
it hurrrtt sooooooo bad
i hope its nothing
but im still worried
yeeaaa
theres alot of built up emotion in me
and i havent really been able to tlak to my friends
cause ive just been so freaking busy
so im letting it all out right here
haha
well yea
hopefully everything turns out good on thursday
spring break whoo i cant wait
time to sleep YES
it came at a good year
i need to catch up on my sleeping
i wanna have plans like every day
so lets make plans guys [;
man...
i need to think
long and hard about my life
or i just need someone to talk to
someone that i can just let it aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllll out to
someone that will give me advice
someone to be honest with me
hard to find people like that
yea
hahaha
ok so like 3 months ago hahahaha
i watched the movie Troy
amazing movie btw
kinda hard to keep up with
but amazing none the less
ok yea i know it was a long time ago
but there was this line that i heard in it
at it was just a line that really like stuck with me
ya know?
like i was thinking about it today
and i was just like wow
intense stuff
well the line was
"Even enemies can show respect"
like no biggie but idk
just really stuck with me
its a good quote i think
wow ive written alot
for those of you still reading this
wow
hahahahahaha
you must
a)be super bored
b)have no life
c)procrastinating on homework
d)really care
orrrr
e)all of the above
hahaha
take your pick
aiiight well thats all for tonight
write more when there is more
peace [:
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
if we keep up this fooling around, we'll be the talk of the town [;
sooo today was the choir festival
SO BORING i wanted to shoot my ears out
NO CUTE GUYS at all
poops ]:
but yea today was intense
made me realize that you cant hold anything back
cause in the blink of an eye everything can change
i mean look what happened today
wow
welll im super happy hes ok [:
after the choir festival we went to go eat...yumm
haha i got to in n out late so i almost didnt get my food
but this super nice sophmore got it for me
thanks [;
well then there was the swim meet
poops that was the worst i have ever done
i really really really suck
like big time
poops ]:
jessica and khrystal made varsity
WHOO [: im proud of you guys
man i felt like crap at the swim meet my stomach would hurt like on and off
hahaha i made the biggest mistake ever
and ate a hamburger :O
i really shouldnt have done that
cause then my tummy started hurting again
poops ]:
hahahaha dude
me and khrystal are craaaazzzzzzzyyyy
we came up with something new
hes got to GOOOOO!!!!!
hahaha
inside joke but yea
funny stuff
haha
shoes i like shoes
oh muh gawwd shoes
i like shoes
hahaha
ok ok im being random here
hmm what else to talk about
open house is on thursday :O
toooo soon
i have to re-memorize lines
ahhh
im doing it for you rochelle [;
practice tomorrow
poops
i dont wanna go
my tummy hurts right now
im like over dosing on pain killers right now
their my best friends at the moment <3
hahaha
im gonna turn into a druggie
Just keeeeeeeding
wow
ok
the pain is getting to my head i should go
lots or homework to catch up on and stuff
poops
aiight well
write more when there is more
PEACE [;
SO BORING i wanted to shoot my ears out
NO CUTE GUYS at all
poops ]:
but yea today was intense
made me realize that you cant hold anything back
cause in the blink of an eye everything can change
i mean look what happened today
wow
welll im super happy hes ok [:
after the choir festival we went to go eat...yumm
haha i got to in n out late so i almost didnt get my food
but this super nice sophmore got it for me
thanks [;
well then there was the swim meet
poops that was the worst i have ever done
i really really really suck
like big time
poops ]:
jessica and khrystal made varsity
WHOO [: im proud of you guys
man i felt like crap at the swim meet my stomach would hurt like on and off
hahaha i made the biggest mistake ever
and ate a hamburger :O
i really shouldnt have done that
cause then my tummy started hurting again
poops ]:
hahahaha dude
me and khrystal are craaaazzzzzzzyyyy
we came up with something new
hes got to GOOOOO!!!!!
hahaha
inside joke but yea
funny stuff
haha
shoes i like shoes
oh muh gawwd shoes
i like shoes
hahaha
ok ok im being random here
hmm what else to talk about
open house is on thursday :O
toooo soon
i have to re-memorize lines
ahhh
im doing it for you rochelle [;
practice tomorrow
poops
i dont wanna go
my tummy hurts right now
im like over dosing on pain killers right now
their my best friends at the moment <3
hahaha
im gonna turn into a druggie
Just keeeeeeeding
wow
ok
the pain is getting to my head i should go
lots or homework to catch up on and stuff
poops
aiight well
write more when there is more
PEACE [;
Monday, March 23, 2009
we'll keep it rockin till they come knockin
Hey hey hey :)
So today I didn't go to school
I woke up with a monstreous headache and a terrible stomach ache I could barely stand up without feeling dizzy
I feel a little better now
I shoulda just gone to school
Ehhh oh well
Tomorrow is the choir festival and a swim meet against st.margrets at kennedy
I have a feeling im gonna fail
I hope I feel better by tomorrow cause I really don't wanna be in a bad mood tomorrow
Man I haven't baby sat my little booger in like 4 months I miss her :( she's such a cutie
I have a sudden urge to play video games cept I don't have any good ones poops
I really wanna play call of duty 3 ahhhhh the closest thing I have to that is sonic which isn't close at all hahaha
Ohhhhhh I found my aviator ray bans whooo I thought I lost them but I didn't
Anyways there's this really great song by john legend called PDA (we just don't care) you guys should listen to it its great :)
I know im just blabbing away but I have nothing better to do
What else hmmmmmm
Oh new moon is coming out in thanksgiving uhhh twitter is becoming HUGE im watching E news right now so yea hahaha im being random
Hannah montanna is taking over the freaaaaking world ugh is it weird that I kinda wanna watch the movie? I guess it is considering that I hate her gutts but whatever I wanna see if the movie is good
I also wanna see 17 again
Ohhh but I really really wanna see the knowing it loooks ssuuuupppppeeeerrrrrrrr goood man I just keep going on and on if your still reading then uhh thanks hahaha :)
Im super excited for saturday
Whoo riding bikes with ali and dipali whoo
Its not for sure yet but hopefully it happens
Ok well im gonna go I have a lot to do like
Paint my nails
Play video games
Do homework so I can get ahead
Catch up on reading and one tree hill
Man there is not enough hours in a day
well see ya guys tomorrow
Talk to some of you later
Write more when there is more
Peace :)
So today I didn't go to school
I woke up with a monstreous headache and a terrible stomach ache I could barely stand up without feeling dizzy
I feel a little better now
I shoulda just gone to school
Ehhh oh well
Tomorrow is the choir festival and a swim meet against st.margrets at kennedy
I have a feeling im gonna fail
I hope I feel better by tomorrow cause I really don't wanna be in a bad mood tomorrow
Man I haven't baby sat my little booger in like 4 months I miss her :( she's such a cutie
I have a sudden urge to play video games cept I don't have any good ones poops
I really wanna play call of duty 3 ahhhhh the closest thing I have to that is sonic which isn't close at all hahaha
Ohhhhhh I found my aviator ray bans whooo I thought I lost them but I didn't
Anyways there's this really great song by john legend called PDA (we just don't care) you guys should listen to it its great :)
I know im just blabbing away but I have nothing better to do
What else hmmmmmm
Oh new moon is coming out in thanksgiving uhhh twitter is becoming HUGE im watching E news right now so yea hahaha im being random
Hannah montanna is taking over the freaaaaking world ugh is it weird that I kinda wanna watch the movie? I guess it is considering that I hate her gutts but whatever I wanna see if the movie is good
I also wanna see 17 again
Ohhh but I really really wanna see the knowing it loooks ssuuuupppppeeeerrrrrrrr goood man I just keep going on and on if your still reading then uhh thanks hahaha :)
Im super excited for saturday
Whoo riding bikes with ali and dipali whoo
Its not for sure yet but hopefully it happens
Ok well im gonna go I have a lot to do like
Paint my nails
Play video games
Do homework so I can get ahead
Catch up on reading and one tree hill
Man there is not enough hours in a day
well see ya guys tomorrow
Talk to some of you later
Write more when there is more
Peace :)
Monday, March 16, 2009
Thursday, March 12, 2009
1 month and 6 days;
since ive written a blog
nothin much has really happened though
just the usual
school, sports, homework
over and over again
well im going to vent a little so if you dont want to hear it..
then the red X is on the top right (unless you have an apple computer then its on the left....i think???)
anyways
since i last wrote on here
swimming started
its been super fun
i got soooooo much slower
i wanna shoot myself
but its all good
my friends are still amazing as always
they spoiled me so much on my birthday i love it <333
by far one of the best
my family....
thats a whole other story thatll just piss me off to write about
my life has just been sorta you know GREAT
[:
but then all good things come to an end right?
guess what my good days have come to an end
it just keeps getting worse and worse
i mean today
i was mad
idk why
i had an ok day at school it was whatever
swim meet was fun as usual
but i just wanted to punch something kick something throw stuff
cry my heart out
i just was mad
dont ask me why cause i dont know
but then there was something that put me over the top
something that made me really really really cry
something that made me punch kick and throw stuff
but the thing is i expected it
i knew it would happen
nothing can ever be completely right in my life
i can never be fully content
i always have to think its different this time
itll work itll work
WRONG
it didnt work
it wasnt different
its the same freaking story over and over again
AND IM SICK AND TIRED OF IT
so what do i do?
do i go on as if nothings wrong
do i just ignore it
or do i do something about it
do i scream and shout and just go around hating me life?
as much as i would like to
im gonna go with the first choice
and ignore it
just go on as if nothings wrong
as if i dont have a care in the world
because who gives a shit right now
im 15 years old
i deserve to have fun right?
but i just have one last thing to say
it wasnt what i thought it was
it wasnt different
its just the same like every other one ive met
no suprise there
well im out for the night
i have nothing else to say
write more when there is more
PEACE [;
nothin much has really happened though
just the usual
school, sports, homework
over and over again
well im going to vent a little so if you dont want to hear it..
then the red X is on the top right (unless you have an apple computer then its on the left....i think???)
anyways
since i last wrote on here
swimming started
its been super fun
i got soooooo much slower
i wanna shoot myself
but its all good
my friends are still amazing as always
they spoiled me so much on my birthday i love it <333
by far one of the best
my family....
thats a whole other story thatll just piss me off to write about
my life has just been sorta you know GREAT
[:
but then all good things come to an end right?
guess what my good days have come to an end
it just keeps getting worse and worse
i mean today
i was mad
idk why
i had an ok day at school it was whatever
swim meet was fun as usual
but i just wanted to punch something kick something throw stuff
cry my heart out
i just was mad
dont ask me why cause i dont know
but then there was something that put me over the top
something that made me really really really cry
something that made me punch kick and throw stuff
but the thing is i expected it
i knew it would happen
nothing can ever be completely right in my life
i can never be fully content
i always have to think its different this time
itll work itll work
WRONG
it didnt work
it wasnt different
its the same freaking story over and over again
AND IM SICK AND TIRED OF IT
so what do i do?
do i go on as if nothings wrong
do i just ignore it
or do i do something about it
do i scream and shout and just go around hating me life?
as much as i would like to
im gonna go with the first choice
and ignore it
just go on as if nothings wrong
as if i dont have a care in the world
because who gives a shit right now
im 15 years old
i deserve to have fun right?
but i just have one last thing to say
it wasnt what i thought it was
it wasnt different
its just the same like every other one ive met
no suprise there
well im out for the night
i have nothing else to say
write more when there is more
PEACE [;
Sunday, January 25, 2009
You make my heart oh so happy [:
yesterday was such an amazing day
i havent had such a good day in a long day
i needed it
well first i baked a cake...without burning down my house
[:
and then i just chilled listened to some music, went on the computer, and studied and then i had to go to rochelles house like around 3:30 to work on our english project and yea that was really fun. Rochelles brother is a cutie. and anthony ramos is freaking hilarious man...and so is his brother. like his brother came up to rochelles door and rochelle gauri and i went to go see what he looked like and he was such a cutie we were like your so cute but i think we scared him cause like he was like ANTHONY and we turned away and then when we looked back he was running down the driveway hahahah he was a cutie.
so then when i got back home i went on the computer some more
and then i decided to call one of my old friends that i havent talked to in like 2 years
it was great talking to him again
it felt like old times
after we hung up i started memorizing lines...rochelle is so amazing the script is great
well yea then i went to sleep
it was just an amazing day
like i didnt fight with my mom
my dad wasnt home to yell and cause trouble
it was just a kick back day
oh and i have a new friend in italy
Hi tea thanks for reading my blog your such a sweetheart <3
well yea today theres gonna be a study session at mi casa so thats gonna be fun
well yea ill write more when there is more
PEACE [:
i havent had such a good day in a long day
i needed it
well first i baked a cake...without burning down my house
[:
and then i just chilled listened to some music, went on the computer, and studied and then i had to go to rochelles house like around 3:30 to work on our english project and yea that was really fun. Rochelles brother is a cutie. and anthony ramos is freaking hilarious man...and so is his brother. like his brother came up to rochelles door and rochelle gauri and i went to go see what he looked like and he was such a cutie we were like your so cute but i think we scared him cause like he was like ANTHONY and we turned away and then when we looked back he was running down the driveway hahahah he was a cutie.
so then when i got back home i went on the computer some more
and then i decided to call one of my old friends that i havent talked to in like 2 years
it was great talking to him again
it felt like old times
after we hung up i started memorizing lines...rochelle is so amazing the script is great
well yea then i went to sleep
it was just an amazing day
like i didnt fight with my mom
my dad wasnt home to yell and cause trouble
it was just a kick back day
oh and i have a new friend in italy
Hi tea thanks for reading my blog your such a sweetheart <3
well yea today theres gonna be a study session at mi casa so thats gonna be fun
well yea ill write more when there is more
PEACE [:
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