When I walk outside

at night and the stars are shining bright
i just wanna never move
we hardly ever get to see the stars now :/
i hate it cause idk why but when i look up at the stars
just shining bright
it gives me...hope i guess you could say
ahahaha
yea monday i walked outside at night and just glanced up and there they were
a million of those stars up there
it just made me feel good inside ya know?
hahaha
im weird
well anyways
this week is going by sooooo slow
ahhh
monday was terrible :/
i stayed up till 2 doing homework
:O
haha who knew i had it in me
hahaha
tuesday was the swim meet
man
those guys were suuupppaaaahhhh hot
hahahaha
the ones from water polo at least
i did pretty bad
man i suck at swimming
like im terrible
today alison taught me like the technique
hahaha
i was waaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy off
thanks alison <3
hopefully thatll make me somewhat faster
hahaha
head down and straight
rotation
shark fin
[;
got it
haha
thats my check off list for when im swimming
tomorrow are the speeches
man
good luck to everyone [:
may the best man or woMAN win hahaha
[;
well yea things have been going better i guess
like whatever
i dont fight as much with my parents anymore
but of course theres the occasional fight
its whatever
i have a doctors appointment next thursday i think
my mom made it cause shes worried that i get headaches everyday
i dont wanna go
im scared
like of what it could be
causee today i got one bad
like terrible
and then yesterday i had one to
but it wasnt that bad
it lasted about an hour so yea
monday was insane
it hurrrtt sooooooo bad
i hope its nothing
but im still worried
yeeaaa
theres alot of built up emotion in me
and i havent really been able to tlak to my friends
cause ive just been so freaking busy
so im letting it all out right here
haha
well yea
hopefully everything turns out good on thursday
spring break whoo i cant wait
time to sleep YES
it came at a good year
i need to catch up on my sleeping
i wanna have plans like every day
so lets make plans guys [;
man...
i need to think
long and hard about my life
or i just need someone to talk to
someone that i can just let it aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllll out to
someone that will give me advice
someone to be honest with me
hard to find people like that
yea
hahaha
ok so like 3 months ago hahahaha
i watched the movie Troy
amazing movie btw
kinda hard to keep up with
but amazing none the less
ok yea i know it was a long time ago
but there was this line that i heard in it
at it was just a line that really like stuck with me
ya know?
like i was thinking about it today
and i was just like wow
intense stuff
well the line was
"Even enemies can show respect"
like no biggie but idk
just really stuck with me
its a good quote i think
wow ive written alot
for those of you still reading this
wow
hahahahahaha
you must
a)be super bored
b)have no life
c)procrastinating on homework
d)really care
orrrr
e)all of the above
hahaha
take your pick
aiiight well thats all for tonight
write more when there is more
peace [: