1 month and 6 days;

since ive written a blog
nothin much has really happened though
just the usual
school, sports, homework
over and over again
well im going to vent a little so if you dont want to hear it..
then the red X is on the top right (unless you have an apple computer then its on the left....i think???)
anyways
since i last wrote on here
swimming started
its been super fun
i got soooooo much slower
i wanna shoot myself
but its all good
my friends are still amazing as always
they spoiled me so much on my birthday i love it <333
by far one of the best
my family....
thats a whole other story thatll just piss me off to write about
my life has just been sorta you know GREAT
[:
but then all good things come to an end right?
guess what my good days have come to an end
it just keeps getting worse and worse
i mean today
i was mad
idk why
i had an ok day at school it was whatever
swim meet was fun as usual
but i just wanted to punch something kick something throw stuff
cry my heart out
i just was mad
dont ask me why cause i dont know
but then there was something that put me over the top
something that made me really really really cry
something that made me punch kick and throw stuff
but the thing is i expected it
i knew it would happen
nothing can ever be completely right in my life
i can never be fully content
i always have to think its different this time
itll work itll work
WRONG
it didnt work
it wasnt different
its the same freaking story over and over again
AND IM SICK AND TIRED OF IT
so what do i do?
do i go on as if nothings wrong
do i just ignore it
or do i do something about it
do i scream and shout and just go around hating me life?
as much as i would like to
im gonna go with the first choice
and ignore it
just go on as if nothings wrong
as if i dont have a care in the world
because who gives a shit right now
im 15 years old
i deserve to have fun right?
but i just have one last thing to say
it wasnt what i thought it was
it wasnt different
its just the same like every other one ive met
no suprise there
well im out for the night
i have nothing else to say
write more when there is more
PEACE [;