Changed Man

is a great song by chris brown [:
anyways lots has happened this past week...some bad...most good. I got to hang out with my friends alot [: homework at starbucks was super fun on saturday and then subrinas party was CRAZZZYYY and super fun of course...ohh beach on wednesday...fun-ish...i met a new friend...jordyn..oh but that was a brinas party..dude we are like the exact same no joke ahaha shes crazzy and funn [: it kinda sounds like im in love with her huh ahaha shes fuckin legit [: i pulled an all nighter with her last night we didnt go to sleep till 11 this morning ahaha soo awesome [: anyways thats the good part of the past week...the bad part i dont wanna talk about...it just seriously made me realize that for me...i dont think love exists...fuck love but thats just me..soo if you believe in it then im really happy for you cause that means youve expierenced it and i heard its great..but yea i wouldnt know ahaha...this year i am gonna dedicate to partying...dancing...living it up...and of course gettting good grades ahaha yea i know its gonna be hard but well i think i can do it...im excited to get my schedule..i really hope i only get 6 classes cauuseee i really dont want to take an elective :p well i guess i will find out monday...if the counslers are even there...anyways new subject...
ive realized soo many things this summer..that i trust people to easily..and man that is gonna change this year...from now on words are bullshit its all about actions...promises dont exisist cause no one can keep them anymore so dont even bother telling me you promise..cause youll prolly break it..everyone does anyways ...and fuck love up the asshole ahaha...it has been one hell of a summer...ive learned so much about people...and what they think of me...excuse me for having fun, im sorry im not skinny, and yea i am loud...but thats just who i am...well i can tell that this year isnt gonna be very pleasant at school..dont ask me how i can tell cause that would mean that i would have so say stuff about people..and i dont wanna do that...ohh another thing i realized talking about people is completely pointless and just causes unneccessary shit...soooo if you have a problem with someone just keep it to yourself maybe itll make life a little easier [:...anyways this next year...not gonna be pleasant..at least not during school...but man once the weekend hits ahaha forget about oa..live it up [: ahaha i say that now...but whats gonna end up happening is my moms not gonna let me go anywhere ]: poops ahaha parents get in the way of everything...well itll all be better once i can drive...YES! im so excited i get my permit in a month and then my license right before spring break...yes spring break will be awesome next year..cause alot of us will have cars and itll just be legit [: wow im really starting to ramble ahaha kaayy its getting late i should prolly catch up on some sleep...night [:

write more when there is more
peace [:

I think...this is...goodbye

well blogging always used to help me let my emotions out...so lets try it and see if it helps....

I cant do this anymore, i told myself i would stop, this summer would be carefree and no guys were gonna get in the way of anything, i told myself that i wasnt gonna fall for any guys bullshit..but here i am blogging about how i fell for your bullshit..dumbass me...anyways let me just get straight to it, i like you ok, fuck after everything you did, i still like you, but this is where it has to stop, im not going to think about you, im not going to text you, ahaha im gonna stop wishing on 11:11 (by the way it never works ahaha) i thought you were different...and your not. i mean yea they told me you know how to treat a girl and how you and your last girlfriend were so in love and blah blah blah but i guess..you just liked me for a different reason..the reason that all guys like me...but not anymore...its gotta stop..i dont want to waste my days hoping that youll text me its just over...thanks for bullshitting me...uhm well this is goodbye

write more when there is more
peace

btw...it helped...alot

its been to long...

wow its been forever since ive written a blog, man it used to make me feel so good writing about what troubles me, so here i am again ahaha. right now im way to lazy to write about stuff thats on my mind cause theres alot but what i will say is that ugh summers almost over ]: what the hell im so sad it went by sooo fast...well i better get on my homework, ill try to keep this updated [:
write more when there is more
peace [:

51 questions

Angie loves Jessica like no other. We're in Hale, and it's really boring. There's no one here. Everyone's on the bio field trip that we can't go to! booohooo!

51 questions
1. First thing you wash in the shower?
J: *does motions* like actually soap?
A: idk how else do you wash yourself?
J: idk i guess my hair (=what about you?
A: my feet! just kidding. my hair.

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
A: *makes awkward faces* blue
J: red

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
A: EWWWW NO NO NO NO! NO NO NO!
j: NOPEEEEEEEEEE! NASTY

4.Do you plan outfits?
J: mostly
A: depends where I'm going

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
A: depressed
J: aww really?
A: no. i feel like i have to go to the bathroom
J: i feel awkward

6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red?
A: jessica's and mine's sweater
J: me too! (=

7. Do you say aim or a-i-m?
J: aim
A: aim

8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
J; Francesca was playing a softball game and there was a college scout who wanted to give her a scholarship. i was helping the scout decide. hahah random i know
A: i don't rememberrr.. ooo it was me going to disneyland and seeing mickey!

9. Did you meet anybody new today?
A: no
J: no

10. What are you craving right now?
A: a HOTT boy
J: me too

11. Do you floss?
A & J; yea
12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
J: turtles
A: St. Patrick's day
J: WHHAAAT?

13. When was the last time you talked on aim?
A&J: last night

14. Are you emotional?
A: when i'm on my red dot days
J: kinda

15. Would you dance to the taco song?
J: taco song?
A: what's that?

16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
A: when i'm trying to sleep
J: i'm too dumb

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
J&A: lick it

18. Do you like your hair?
A: yes. no.......no
J: sometimes. i like it longer better

19. Do you like yourself?
J: most days. but not really
A: no

20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
A: yes. halle berry. sam from iCarly
J: sam from iCarly and i saw jessica alba

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
J: yes
A: ewwwwww..... yea.

22. What are you listening to right now?
A&J: Kyler's Eminem rap music

23. How many countries have you visited?
A: 4
J: 9

24. Are your parents strict?
A&J: not really

25. Would you go sky diving?
A&J: nope

26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
A: ewww no
J: nah that's creepy

27. Would you throw potatoes at him?
A: of course
J: nahhh

28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in?
J: no it's a dungeon
A: no except your eyes

29. Have you ever been in a castle?
J: yes. in vienna where marie antoinette lived (=
A: my play castle

30. Do you rent movies often?
A: no i download them
J: yea kinda

31. Who sits in behind you in your math class?
J: heffffyyyyyyyyyy (=
A: depends

32. Have you made a prank phone call?
A: heheheheh yea
J; si

33. Do you own a gun?
A&J: nah. angie wants one

34. Can you count backwards from 74?
A: 74. 73. 72... yea
J: yea

35. Who are you going to be with tonight?
J: mama
A: mama and papa

36. Brown or white eggs?
A:green eggs and ham
J: white

37. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
A: yes
J; nah. that place scares me

38. Ever been on a train?
A&J: yea

39. Ever been in love?
A: no
J: nah

40. Do you have a cell-phone?
A&J; yess

41. Are you too forgiving?
A: yes
J; yes

42. Do you use chap stick?
A&J: yes

43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
A: going to school
J; going on a lunch date with me (=

44. Can you use chop sticks?
A: no
J; yes

45. Ever have cream puffs?
A: no
J; yummmyyy (=

46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
J; most of it
A: omg yea so scary

47. What was the last question you asked?
J: are you serious? you're not gna be able to unlock the websites at school
A: who asked you to prom?

48. Boys or girls?
A: i like boys
J: hot boys

49. Last time you cried?
A&J: last night

50. Ever walked into a wall?
J: yes it was clear
A: always

51. Do looks matter?
A: yea
J; sometimes

R.I.P

it finally sunk in...hes gone forever
ill never see him again
all i have left are the memories that he left behind
the ones that will never leave my mind
This ones for you Tio Max:
thanks for everything youve ever done for my mom and I
you were such a great uncle, i remenber you bought me lion king when my mom wouldnt
you took me to school in the morning when my mom didnt wanna wake up early
yo bought me the ciara cd because she was my favorite singer
you were always straight up you never needed to lie to impress other people
you were real, you told it how it was, and you were just an amazing person
i wish you didnt have to leave us
i wish your time wasnt now
throughout these past couple of days everyone has just been telling me that your in a better place, and that you dont feel anymore pain and that everyones time has to come and yours just came now
but to tell you the truth im kind of jealous of you
you get to leave this world, its bitterness, its fighting, the struggle for survival instead
you get to be up there happy and with andres
say hi to him for me
i reallly miss him
he was an amazing cousin
i hope you really are in a better place
with grandma, and grandpa, with tia mirrian and of course andres
we miss you so much though
and i cant wait to see you one day when my time comes
i love you and like my best friend said
im going to be down here, living my life the best possible way
to honor you and the time you spent here with us
thanks for everything youve done for us
your an amazing person, brother, uncle, dad just everything
we'll never forget you and your accomplishments, and i thank god that i got to meet you before you left
i love you

My Darling, You

CST'S ARE OVER!!!!
poops ]:
i loved the schedule and the tests were easy peasy lemon squeezy [:
next week it will be regular schedule yay...NOT ahaha
so today was a very good day...somewhat ahaha
the beginning was fun i love my cluster ahahaha soojee i freaking love you <3
she planned all the food stuf she drew totally awwesome people...shes just freaking amazing <3
to soojee: Thanks for everything you do for our cluster...we'd be boring without you[;
anyways ahaha spanish...was super fun i found out something that just made my day im soooo happppyyyy [;
i just wanna bounce off the walls and yea just smile hahahaa that didnt make sense did it
and then after well math wasss gay
i ripped my paper 3 freaking times ]:
so im super behind now....w.e
yea then choir was whatever
and then after school.....i lost the bet ]:
but hey things could happen in 20 days
but i doubt it ]:
hahaha its kay
well yea thats about it
i hope tomorrow will be a good day as well
sandlot in cluster yay [:
well gotta get to my essay
write more when there is more
peace [:

shes so lucky

it was a super fun weekend
starting friday
went to go eat with dip and alex, that was fun fun fun [:
mmm....i love Dairy Queen [:
then saturday i had a saturday school but it was aiight cause i got a chance to do homework so taht was coooolll afterwards arantxa, alyssa, tasha and katrina were making a commercial thingy ahahahaha it was funnaayyyyy then they left
and my mommy took forever to pick me up
then i went to knotts with dip and devyn
then we ran into tyler
and so we hung out with him and his friend
that was fuunnn
before that though
we went on riptide
and i forgot to take off my flats so i took them off while the ride was about to take off and i held them....cause you know i didnt want them to fall off....so then the incredibly hot worker...wesly...told me to drop them on the platform....so i did....BUT...i missed and the other one fell in the water for those of you that have never been on the ride... heres a picture i think its on the left somewhere like on the top??? idk hahaha theres but yea where the water is being squirted theres a pool of water and it fell in there and i had to wait 30 minutes for the people to get it out it sucked...but its kay i got to stare at the hot guy....man he was sexxyyy [: but then he left ]: its kay though ahahaha he kept making fun of me
then we met up with tyler and yea
ahaha me and ryan (one of the workers and tylers friends friend) went on parolous plunge at like 8 at night....ahahaha TWICE...i got soaked and was freezing the rest of the night but it was totally worth it i love that ride [:
then excelerator broke down TWICE
and both times we were in front and about to go on
ahahahahahahahahhaa it sucked...
then we went home
man me and dip were supperrrr tired
ahahaha and hungry (well i was)
OH WAIT I FORGOT
tyler and his friend won me and dip a pig EACH [:
and then his friend won me a teddy bear [: he wass supper nice [:
well yea...it was super fun cept ugh the whole time i couldnt help wishing it was...someone else...just like seeing the couples there and everything...it was kinda depressing and like the whole time i was just like...if only he was here...omg this reminds me of him....ugh it sucks its like i can never have fully one hundred percent fun unless hes there...which is so stupid because ugh im supposed to be over it...im supposed to not care....you know the song..you got it bad by usher..yea thats how i feel...and if youve never heard the song..well idk go look it up on youtube...but yea its stupid...im stupid...ugh i wish life was easy...you like him he likes you...bam just like that but nope there always has to be a challange...there always has to be heartache in the end...but idk one day
ahaha
well today i was thinking about god...ok im NOT atheist but idk people are always saying how the best things happen to people who believe in god and youll be more successful through god...but i mean some atheists have it better than alot of super believers of god...idk i still believe in him...hes done so much for me...but sometimes i cant help but have my doubts....but like my mommy always says "he does whats best for you" but yea thats about it for today nothing else to really say gots to get to homework
write more when there is more
peace [: