Changed Man

is a great song by chris brown [:
anyways lots has happened this past week...some bad...most good. I got to hang out with my friends alot [: homework at starbucks was super fun on saturday and then subrinas party was CRAZZZYYY and super fun of course...ohh beach on wednesday...fun-ish...i met a new friend...jordyn..oh but that was a brinas party..dude we are like the exact same no joke ahaha shes crazzy and funn [: it kinda sounds like im in love with her huh ahaha shes fuckin legit [: i pulled an all nighter with her last night we didnt go to sleep till 11 this morning ahaha soo awesome [: anyways thats the good part of the past week...the bad part i dont wanna talk about...it just seriously made me realize that for me...i dont think love exists...fuck love but thats just me..soo if you believe in it then im really happy for you cause that means youve expierenced it and i heard its great..but yea i wouldnt know ahaha...this year i am gonna dedicate to partying...dancing...living it up...and of course gettting good grades ahaha yea i know its gonna be hard but well i think i can do it...im excited to get my schedule..i really hope i only get 6 classes cauuseee i really dont want to take an elective :p well i guess i will find out monday...if the counslers are even there...anyways new subject...
ive realized soo many things this summer..that i trust people to easily..and man that is gonna change this year...from now on words are bullshit its all about actions...promises dont exisist cause no one can keep them anymore so dont even bother telling me you promise..cause youll prolly break it..everyone does anyways ...and fuck love up the asshole ahaha...it has been one hell of a summer...ive learned so much about people...and what they think of me...excuse me for having fun, im sorry im not skinny, and yea i am loud...but thats just who i am...well i can tell that this year isnt gonna be very pleasant at school..dont ask me how i can tell cause that would mean that i would have so say stuff about people..and i dont wanna do that...ohh another thing i realized talking about people is completely pointless and just causes unneccessary shit...soooo if you have a problem with someone just keep it to yourself maybe itll make life a little easier [:...anyways this next year...not gonna be pleasant..at least not during school...but man once the weekend hits ahaha forget about oa..live it up [: ahaha i say that now...but whats gonna end up happening is my moms not gonna let me go anywhere ]: poops ahaha parents get in the way of everything...well itll all be better once i can drive...YES! im so excited i get my permit in a month and then my license right before spring break...yes spring break will be awesome next year..cause alot of us will have cars and itll just be legit [: wow im really starting to ramble ahaha kaayy its getting late i should prolly catch up on some sleep...night [:

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I think...this is...goodbye

well blogging always used to help me let my emotions out...so lets try it and see if it helps....

I cant do this anymore, i told myself i would stop, this summer would be carefree and no guys were gonna get in the way of anything, i told myself that i wasnt gonna fall for any guys bullshit..but here i am blogging about how i fell for your bullshit..dumbass me...anyways let me just get straight to it, i like you ok, fuck after everything you did, i still like you, but this is where it has to stop, im not going to think about you, im not going to text you, ahaha im gonna stop wishing on 11:11 (by the way it never works ahaha) i thought you were different...and your not. i mean yea they told me you know how to treat a girl and how you and your last girlfriend were so in love and blah blah blah but i guess..you just liked me for a different reason..the reason that all guys like me...but not anymore...its gotta stop..i dont want to waste my days hoping that youll text me its just over...thanks for bullshitting me...uhm well this is goodbye

write more when there is more
peace

btw...it helped...alot

its been to long...

wow its been forever since ive written a blog, man it used to make me feel so good writing about what troubles me, so here i am again ahaha. right now im way to lazy to write about stuff thats on my mind cause theres alot but what i will say is that ugh summers almost over ]: what the hell im so sad it went by sooo fast...well i better get on my homework, ill try to keep this updated [:
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peace [: