My Darling, You

CST'S ARE OVER!!!!
poops ]:
i loved the schedule and the tests were easy peasy lemon squeezy [:
next week it will be regular schedule yay...NOT ahaha
so today was a very good day...somewhat ahaha
the beginning was fun i love my cluster ahahaha soojee i freaking love you <3
she planned all the food stuf she drew totally awwesome people...shes just freaking amazing <3
to soojee: Thanks for everything you do for our cluster...we'd be boring without you[;
anyways ahaha spanish...was super fun i found out something that just made my day im soooo happppyyyy [;
i just wanna bounce off the walls and yea just smile hahahaa that didnt make sense did it
and then after well math wasss gay
i ripped my paper 3 freaking times ]:
so im super behind now....w.e
yea then choir was whatever
and then after school.....i lost the bet ]:
but hey things could happen in 20 days
but i doubt it ]:
hahaha its kay
well yea thats about it
i hope tomorrow will be a good day as well
sandlot in cluster yay [:
well gotta get to my essay
write more when there is more
peace [:

shes so lucky

it was a super fun weekend
starting friday
went to go eat with dip and alex, that was fun fun fun [:
mmm....i love Dairy Queen [:
then saturday i had a saturday school but it was aiight cause i got a chance to do homework so taht was coooolll afterwards arantxa, alyssa, tasha and katrina were making a commercial thingy ahahahaha it was funnaayyyyy then they left
and my mommy took forever to pick me up
then i went to knotts with dip and devyn
then we ran into tyler
and so we hung out with him and his friend
that was fuunnn
before that though
we went on riptide
and i forgot to take off my flats so i took them off while the ride was about to take off and i held them....cause you know i didnt want them to fall off....so then the incredibly hot worker...wesly...told me to drop them on the platform....so i did....BUT...i missed and the other one fell in the water for those of you that have never been on the ride... heres a picture i think its on the left somewhere like on the top??? idk hahaha theres but yea where the water is being squirted theres a pool of water and it fell in there and i had to wait 30 minutes for the people to get it out it sucked...but its kay i got to stare at the hot guy....man he was sexxyyy [: but then he left ]: its kay though ahahaha he kept making fun of me
then we met up with tyler and yea
ahaha me and ryan (one of the workers and tylers friends friend) went on parolous plunge at like 8 at night....ahahaha TWICE...i got soaked and was freezing the rest of the night but it was totally worth it i love that ride [:
then excelerator broke down TWICE
and both times we were in front and about to go on
ahahahahahahahahhaa it sucked...
then we went home
man me and dip were supperrrr tired
ahahaha and hungry (well i was)
OH WAIT I FORGOT
tyler and his friend won me and dip a pig EACH [:
and then his friend won me a teddy bear [: he wass supper nice [:
well yea...it was super fun cept ugh the whole time i couldnt help wishing it was...someone else...just like seeing the couples there and everything...it was kinda depressing and like the whole time i was just like...if only he was here...omg this reminds me of him....ugh it sucks its like i can never have fully one hundred percent fun unless hes there...which is so stupid because ugh im supposed to be over it...im supposed to not care....you know the song..you got it bad by usher..yea thats how i feel...and if youve never heard the song..well idk go look it up on youtube...but yea its stupid...im stupid...ugh i wish life was easy...you like him he likes you...bam just like that but nope there always has to be a challange...there always has to be heartache in the end...but idk one day
ahaha
well today i was thinking about god...ok im NOT atheist but idk people are always saying how the best things happen to people who believe in god and youll be more successful through god...but i mean some atheists have it better than alot of super believers of god...idk i still believe in him...hes done so much for me...but sometimes i cant help but have my doubts....but like my mommy always says "he does whats best for you" but yea thats about it for today nothing else to really say gots to get to homework
write more when there is more
peace [:

Love is just the best thing of us now

today was a kick back day
fun fun fun
[:
i made a cake
and made chocolate frosting from scratch
it was delicious if i do say so myself
[:
annddd i didnt burn the house down hahahaha im getting good at cookinng
man so the last couple days have been fun
thursday was the beach party
as everyone has been talking about it in their blogs
it wasss ffuuuuuunnnnnnnnnnnnn
i love bonfires
so relaxing
hahaha volleyball was fuunnn
hahahaahahaa poor nobel was trying to be all serious about it
hahaha our poor guys got schooled at football by cypress
its kaaayy guys
good try [:
yea it was super fun
cept i had to leave early ]:
and of course my freaking dad had to kill everything
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oh well it was fun while it lasted [:
kay well then friday i went to the mall with alex
there was the cutest guy working at forever 21
im talking sseeeexxxyyy [:
cept his hair was a little to long
hahaa and he was like 18
and had a pretty nasty cold sore on his lip
actually he wasnt that sexy ahahahaha
his eyes were though [:
well after the mall
we went to jeremeys parttaaayyy
fun stuff
im terrible at ping pong
kevin is like freaking pro status though ahahaha
oh i watched cheska dip and devyn do the hoedown thingy
hahaha you guys did it better than miley
congrats [:
haahahahahahaha
i hope you didnt get in trouble jeremey ]:
and thanks it was a super fun party
hahaha
tim and chris singing on rockband
crazzzyyy stuff man and freaking hilarious
well yea thats about it
tomorrow is all homework day
BOOO ]:
im so behind
i think im the only one who hasnt started on homework
hahaha
thats about it for now
write more when there is more
PEACE [;

I Will Be Right Here Waiting

today was a terrible day
i started the day off with hale -____-
i got a freaking saturday and some other things happened in the office
but lets not talk about that
then the 5k it was whatever i guesss
not that bad
then math
easy but boring
then the speeches
yea
idk
it was just a bad day
my back is killing me
so is my shoulder
i have a headache :/
practice wasnt that bad i guess
man
i feel so stupid
im struggling so much right now
i dont think i can do it
sports and then homework
am i the only one
cause it seems like that
my grades are terrible
ugh
i try
i do my homework
but im just so tired
no matter how long i sleep for
im still hella tired
i mean ok i took a 2 hour nap today
but im still super sleepy
and i have homework to do ]:
ugh
and to top it all off
i cant find my freaking phone
i wanna cry
i dont remember where i put it
thats been happening alot
i forget things alot
like idk
fuck
my mom is gonna kill me
damn....
not a good day at all
the only good thing is spring break
well thats about it
write more when there is more
peace

When I walk outside

at night and the stars are shining bright
i just wanna never move
we hardly ever get to see the stars now :/
i hate it cause idk why but when i look up at the stars
just shining bright
it gives me...hope i guess you could say
ahahaha
yea monday i walked outside at night and just glanced up and there they were
a million of those stars up there
it just made me feel good inside ya know?
hahaha
im weird
well anyways
this week is going by sooooo slow
ahhh
monday was terrible :/
i stayed up till 2 doing homework
:O
haha who knew i had it in me
hahaha
tuesday was the swim meet
man
those guys were suuupppaaaahhhh hot
hahahaha
the ones from water polo at least
i did pretty bad
man i suck at swimming
like im terrible
today alison taught me like the technique
hahaha
i was waaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy off
thanks alison <3
hopefully thatll make me somewhat faster
hahaha
head down and straight
rotation
shark fin
[;
got it
haha
thats my check off list for when im swimming
tomorrow are the speeches
man
good luck to everyone [:
may the best man or woMAN win hahaha
[;
well yea things have been going better i guess
like whatever
i dont fight as much with my parents anymore
but of course theres the occasional fight
its whatever
i have a doctors appointment next thursday i think
my mom made it cause shes worried that i get headaches everyday
i dont wanna go
im scared
like of what it could be
causee today i got one bad
like terrible
and then yesterday i had one to
but it wasnt that bad
it lasted about an hour so yea
monday was insane
it hurrrtt sooooooo bad
i hope its nothing
but im still worried
yeeaaa
theres alot of built up emotion in me
and i havent really been able to tlak to my friends
cause ive just been so freaking busy
so im letting it all out right here
haha
well yea
hopefully everything turns out good on thursday
spring break whoo i cant wait
time to sleep YES
it came at a good year
i need to catch up on my sleeping
i wanna have plans like every day
so lets make plans guys [;
man...
i need to think
long and hard about my life
or i just need someone to talk to
someone that i can just let it aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllll out to
someone that will give me advice
someone to be honest with me
hard to find people like that
yea
hahaha
ok so like 3 months ago hahahaha
i watched the movie Troy
amazing movie btw
kinda hard to keep up with
but amazing none the less
ok yea i know it was a long time ago
but there was this line that i heard in it
at it was just a line that really like stuck with me
ya know?
like i was thinking about it today
and i was just like wow
intense stuff
well the line was
"Even enemies can show respect"
like no biggie but idk
just really stuck with me
its a good quote i think
wow ive written alot
for those of you still reading this
wow
hahahahahaha
you must
a)be super bored
b)have no life
c)procrastinating on homework
d)really care
orrrr
e)all of the above
hahaha
take your pick
aiiight well thats all for tonight
write more when there is more
peace [: