if we keep up this fooling around, we'll be the talk of the town [;

sooo today was the choir festival
SO BORING i wanted to shoot my ears out
NO CUTE GUYS at all
poops ]:
but yea today was intense
made me realize that you cant hold anything back
cause in the blink of an eye everything can change
i mean look what happened today
wow
welll im super happy hes ok [:
after the choir festival we went to go eat...yumm
haha i got to in n out late so i almost didnt get my food
but this super nice sophmore got it for me
thanks [;
well then there was the swim meet
poops that was the worst i have ever done
i really really really suck
like big time
poops ]:
jessica and khrystal made varsity
WHOO [: im proud of you guys
man i felt like crap at the swim meet my stomach would hurt like on and off
hahaha i made the biggest mistake ever
and ate a hamburger :O
i really shouldnt have done that
cause then my tummy started hurting again
poops ]:
hahahaha dude
me and khrystal are craaaazzzzzzzyyyy
we came up with something new
hes got to GOOOOO!!!!!
hahaha
inside joke but yea
funny stuff
haha
shoes i like shoes
oh muh gawwd shoes
i like shoes
hahaha
ok ok im being random here
hmm what else to talk about
open house is on thursday :O
toooo soon
i have to re-memorize lines
ahhh
im doing it for you rochelle [;
practice tomorrow
poops
i dont wanna go
my tummy hurts right now
im like over dosing on pain killers right now
their my best friends at the moment <3
hahaha
im gonna turn into a druggie
Just keeeeeeeding
wow
ok
the pain is getting to my head i should go
lots or homework to catch up on and stuff
poops
aiight well
write more when there is more
PEACE [;

we'll keep it rockin till they come knockin

Hey hey hey :)
So today I didn't go to school
I woke up with a monstreous headache and a terrible stomach ache I could barely stand up without feeling dizzy
I feel a little better now
I shoulda just gone to school
Ehhh oh well
Tomorrow is the choir festival and a swim meet against st.margrets at kennedy
I have a feeling im gonna fail
I hope I feel better by tomorrow cause I really don't wanna be in a bad mood tomorrow
Man I haven't baby sat my little booger in like 4 months I miss her :( she's such a cutie
I have a sudden urge to play video games cept I don't have any good ones poops
I really wanna play call of duty 3 ahhhhh the closest thing I have to that is sonic which isn't close at all hahaha
Ohhhhhh I found my aviator ray bans whooo I thought I lost them but I didn't
Anyways there's this really great song by john legend called PDA (we just don't care) you guys should listen to it its great :)
I know im just blabbing away but I have nothing better to do
What else hmmmmmm
Oh new moon is coming out in thanksgiving uhhh twitter is becoming HUGE im watching E news right now so yea hahaha im being random
Hannah montanna is taking over the freaaaaking world ugh is it weird that I kinda wanna watch the movie? I guess it is considering that I hate her gutts but whatever I wanna see if the movie is good
I also wanna see 17 again
Ohhh but I really really wanna see the knowing it loooks ssuuuupppppeeeerrrrrrrr goood man I just keep going on and on if your still reading then uhh thanks hahaha :)
Im super excited for saturday
Whoo riding bikes with ali and dipali whoo
Its not for sure yet but hopefully it happens
Ok well im gonna go I have a lot to do like
Paint my nails
Play video games
Do homework so I can get ahead
Catch up on reading and one tree hill
Man there is not enough hours in a day
well see ya guys tomorrow
Talk to some of you later
Write more when there is more
Peace :)

If only

it didnt always end up like this :/

1 month and 6 days;

since ive written a blog
nothin much has really happened though
just the usual
school, sports, homework
over and over again
well im going to vent a little so if you dont want to hear it..
then the red X is on the top right (unless you have an apple computer then its on the left....i think???)
anyways
since i last wrote on here
swimming started
its been super fun
i got soooooo much slower
i wanna shoot myself
but its all good
my friends are still amazing as always
they spoiled me so much on my birthday i love it <333
by far one of the best
my family....
thats a whole other story thatll just piss me off to write about
my life has just been sorta you know GREAT
[:
but then all good things come to an end right?
guess what my good days have come to an end
it just keeps getting worse and worse
i mean today
i was mad
idk why
i had an ok day at school it was whatever
swim meet was fun as usual
but i just wanted to punch something kick something throw stuff
cry my heart out
i just was mad
dont ask me why cause i dont know
but then there was something that put me over the top
something that made me really really really cry
something that made me punch kick and throw stuff
but the thing is i expected it
i knew it would happen
nothing can ever be completely right in my life
i can never be fully content
i always have to think its different this time
itll work itll work
WRONG
it didnt work
it wasnt different
its the same freaking story over and over again
AND IM SICK AND TIRED OF IT
so what do i do?
do i go on as if nothings wrong
do i just ignore it
or do i do something about it
do i scream and shout and just go around hating me life?
as much as i would like to
im gonna go with the first choice
and ignore it
just go on as if nothings wrong
as if i dont have a care in the world
because who gives a shit right now
im 15 years old
i deserve to have fun right?
but i just have one last thing to say
it wasnt what i thought it was
it wasnt different
its just the same like every other one ive met
no suprise there
well im out for the night
i have nothing else to say
write more when there is more
PEACE [;