Wow those stars sure are pretty

just got back from a weekend in palm springs
i love it
the weather was freezing cold
just the way i like it <3
at night on friday i went outside by the pool was a huge blanket and a cup of hot coco and layed down on those pool chair/bed things and just star gazed
it was just amazing
i wished on the brightest star that i would be able to see stars like that here in buena park
while i was star gazing i was listening to love songs
hahaha i hate those stupid songs
they sicken me (because they remind me of.....someone)
but yea ive refrained from listening to them for like 3 weeks and i just couldnt i had to listen to them
gotta have me some deppressing love songs about stupid couples in love
gross lol
well on saturday i really missed talking to my besterdest friend in the whole wide world so i stole my dads phone and went on aim luckily she was on
<3 you mucho dipali i wish you were there
OH i almost forgot
i went to cabazon on friday afternoon and man oh man i had never seen so many asians in one place (except oxford)
it was crazy [:
it went like this
blacks- max 7 (LMAO my mom almost got shot by one cause my mom accidently bumped into the black lady and the black girl was like UHM EXUSE ME BITCH and my mom was like sorry and the hoe was like BETTER BE BITCH i was about to call that fat ass bitch every name in the book but then that would have been the end of me and my mom so yea no)
mexicans- max 30
whites- max 200 (hahahaha the closest cities around cabazon are flooded with white people so that explains it)
asians- max 345678987654345678 [:
hahaha good times good times
well i hope you al had an amazing christmas full of love and joy and all that gushy stuff and happy new year lets make 2009 the best yet [[:

Good morning [:

whoot babysitting today
cause its christmas eve and i have no life
[:
haha jk i love the little girl i babysitt shes a cutie
maybe ill put up some pics on myspace later
gotta try out my new camera [:
this christmas so far is the worst ever
i mean i dont care that im not going to get very many presents cause of the ecomomic situation i really dont
but when my mom has to work christmas eve, christmas, and the day after christmas, yea i start caring
its supposed to be family time
and im going to be HOME ALONE ON CHRISTMAS
cause i think my dads gotta do something
i mean god im so jealous of all of you with huge families that all live here and all of you guys that get to have a real christmas and get to bond with your cousins
god its just i would give anything to be able to be with all my family in costa rica or egypt my mom was telling me about how christmas would be the best because one huge 3 story house wouldnt be enough to fit all their family, she told me she didnt care that she only got one present it was the best because she was with all her family. I can see it hurts her to not be with the rest of her family thats why she spoils my aunt thats in palm springs, idk but just i mean i have my mom and dad and aunt and her fiancee but i want to see all my cousins and 4567876543 aunts and uncles but whatever just gotta make the best of this christmas well merry christmas to all of you guys i hope you get lots of presents and enjoy your families
<3 peace

I want

to be yours
and only yours
i dont want to get nervous around you
i want you to start talking to me
i want you to need me
i want you to want me
i want you to trust me
i want you to like talking to me
i want you to not think im boring
i want you to like me more than a friend
i want you to say im the only one
i want you to think of me when you hear a love song
i want you to look at me with those big brown eyes like we were made for eachother
i want to not get jealous when you talk to another girl
i want to know that we are perfect for eachother
i want to spend a whole day getting to know you for you
i want you to get to know me
i want to stop hearing other people talk about you (it makes me jealous)
i want this crush to stop getting bigger
i dont want to get hurt
i want you to know what you do to me
i want you to be able to feel my heart beat 10000 times faster when you touch me
i want you to be able to feel my stomach and the millions of butterflies fluttering in it
i want you to know that your my motivation to stay here at Oxford
i want you to know that your quickly becoming the only thing i think about
i want you to be the only one i dream about
i want a million more things that have to do with you
i want to actually believe all of the above could happen

its been

forever since ive written a blog
yea no time to spare
except now haha
hahah i have a story to tell though
ok ready
once upon a time there lived a girl
and she was a very odd girl
she always got hurt
it sucked to be her
she was also a very jealous and easily irritated person
lol
really sucked to be her
the end
^^^ enough said

christmas wish list

you [;
today was a horrible day
being sick sucks
so does throwing up
bleehhh
well anyways
yea
i hope i feel better
im going to school tomorrow
if i throw up on you
im sorry
:/
peace out [:

All I Want for Christmas

wow i havent written on here in a while
not much to write
anonymous blogger is a bitch
suck a dick
uhm...
i hate this time of year
stupid couples (im secretly jealous but dont tell [:)
everyone keeps talking about formal and its like 2 months away
its exciting seeing whos asking who and who wants who to ask who
that didnt make much sense did it?
well yea
uhm today was a good day except being sick sucks balls
i dont think tomorrow will be a good day
i dont think it will ever be a completely good day
until....something good happens
yea im not making sense
well im going to go sleep before i throw up
ooo
can you throw up while you sleep????
ill ask that in health tomorrow
[:
peace out [: