Wow those stars sure are pretty

just got back from a weekend in palm springs
i love it
the weather was freezing cold
just the way i like it <3
at night on friday i went outside by the pool was a huge blanket and a cup of hot coco and layed down on those pool chair/bed things and just star gazed
it was just amazing
i wished on the brightest star that i would be able to see stars like that here in buena park
while i was star gazing i was listening to love songs
hahaha i hate those stupid songs
they sicken me (because they remind me of.....someone)
but yea ive refrained from listening to them for like 3 weeks and i just couldnt i had to listen to them
gotta have me some deppressing love songs about stupid couples in love
gross lol
well on saturday i really missed talking to my besterdest friend in the whole wide world so i stole my dads phone and went on aim luckily she was on
<3 you mucho dipali i wish you were there
OH i almost forgot
i went to cabazon on friday afternoon and man oh man i had never seen so many asians in one place (except oxford)
it was crazy [:
it went like this
blacks- max 7 (LMAO my mom almost got shot by one cause my mom accidently bumped into the black lady and the black girl was like UHM EXUSE ME BITCH and my mom was like sorry and the hoe was like BETTER BE BITCH i was about to call that fat ass bitch every name in the book but then that would have been the end of me and my mom so yea no)
mexicans- max 30
whites- max 200 (hahahaha the closest cities around cabazon are flooded with white people so that explains it)
asians- max 345678987654345678 [:
hahaha good times good times
well i hope you al had an amazing christmas full of love and joy and all that gushy stuff and happy new year lets make 2009 the best yet [[:

Good morning [:

whoot babysitting today
cause its christmas eve and i have no life
[:
haha jk i love the little girl i babysitt shes a cutie
maybe ill put up some pics on myspace later
gotta try out my new camera [:
this christmas so far is the worst ever
i mean i dont care that im not going to get very many presents cause of the ecomomic situation i really dont
but when my mom has to work christmas eve, christmas, and the day after christmas, yea i start caring
its supposed to be family time
and im going to be HOME ALONE ON CHRISTMAS
cause i think my dads gotta do something
i mean god im so jealous of all of you with huge families that all live here and all of you guys that get to have a real christmas and get to bond with your cousins
god its just i would give anything to be able to be with all my family in costa rica or egypt my mom was telling me about how christmas would be the best because one huge 3 story house wouldnt be enough to fit all their family, she told me she didnt care that she only got one present it was the best because she was with all her family. I can see it hurts her to not be with the rest of her family thats why she spoils my aunt thats in palm springs, idk but just i mean i have my mom and dad and aunt and her fiancee but i want to see all my cousins and 4567876543 aunts and uncles but whatever just gotta make the best of this christmas well merry christmas to all of you guys i hope you get lots of presents and enjoy your families
<3 peace

I want

to be yours
and only yours
i dont want to get nervous around you
i want you to start talking to me
i want you to need me
i want you to want me
i want you to trust me
i want you to like talking to me
i want you to not think im boring
i want you to like me more than a friend
i want you to say im the only one
i want you to think of me when you hear a love song
i want you to look at me with those big brown eyes like we were made for eachother
i want to not get jealous when you talk to another girl
i want to know that we are perfect for eachother
i want to spend a whole day getting to know you for you
i want you to get to know me
i want to stop hearing other people talk about you (it makes me jealous)
i want this crush to stop getting bigger
i dont want to get hurt
i want you to know what you do to me
i want you to be able to feel my heart beat 10000 times faster when you touch me
i want you to be able to feel my stomach and the millions of butterflies fluttering in it
i want you to know that your my motivation to stay here at Oxford
i want you to know that your quickly becoming the only thing i think about
i want you to be the only one i dream about
i want a million more things that have to do with you
i want to actually believe all of the above could happen

its been

forever since ive written a blog
yea no time to spare
except now haha
hahah i have a story to tell though
ok ready
once upon a time there lived a girl
and she was a very odd girl
she always got hurt
it sucked to be her
she was also a very jealous and easily irritated person
lol
really sucked to be her
the end
^^^ enough said

christmas wish list

you [;
today was a horrible day
being sick sucks
so does throwing up
bleehhh
well anyways
yea
i hope i feel better
im going to school tomorrow
if i throw up on you
im sorry
:/
peace out [:

All I Want for Christmas

wow i havent written on here in a while
not much to write
anonymous blogger is a bitch
suck a dick
uhm...
i hate this time of year
stupid couples (im secretly jealous but dont tell [:)
everyone keeps talking about formal and its like 2 months away
its exciting seeing whos asking who and who wants who to ask who
that didnt make much sense did it?
well yea
uhm today was a good day except being sick sucks balls
i dont think tomorrow will be a good day
i dont think it will ever be a completely good day
until....something good happens
yea im not making sense
well im going to go sleep before i throw up
ooo
can you throw up while you sleep????
ill ask that in health tomorrow
[:
peace out [:

I wanna know the truth instead of wonderting why

yesterday was an ok day
i guess
soccer was ehhh
scrimmage was horrible
hahahah correction i was horrible
OMFG
i went into the gym after practice
and the stupid guy from kiis took a horrible picture of me
and its online im gonna shoot him if i see him again i swear
to all of you guys who think im photogenic youll change your mind after you see the picture
so freaking embarrasing hahaha
uhm lets see
oh yea ok so im grounded
just this weekend
GAY
everyone has something to do this weekend except me
yea
im never ditching again
and to all of you who want to
DONT
so not worth it
hmmm what else to talk about?
OH YEA
congrats francesca and eric [:
and you to karina and tyler
so many couples ahh
i feel so alone
hahaha
lets see what else..oh yea
ok so i just noticed something
and its not cool at all
your turning into her
exactly
hahahahaha
i woulnt be suprised if you turned into a whore to [:
uhm that feeling that i keep talking about
yea
only going one way
hahaha like always
didnt i tell u this would happen
it would end up the way it always does
me feeling like a complete and total idiot
omfg dude
im dreading formal
hahaha
i dont want to hear about people asking other people
and that certain someone rubbing it in how she gets to go shopping for a dress
I DONT CARE
hahaha
just cause she has all the guys waiting in line to go out with her :p
but in a way im kind of excited
i wanna see who ends up going with who
i have some predictions though
im wondering if they will come true
probably im usually right about this type of stuff [:
the night of formal i have a feeling im gonna be at home eating ice cream and watching scary movies
yes scary not love
well thats all
i have nothing else to say
ill write more when there is more
peace
[:

Im a player that is true but ill change the game for you [:

wow havent written a blog in forever
well here i am
hello world (or everyone who is reading this)
well lets see
i miss my mommy
shes been gone for a whole week
but she comes back tonight
YAY [:
well this past 2 weeks have been crazy
hahahahaa
lots of crying
lots and lots of crying
but good stuff to
theres this one person whos awesome, i love her
JESSICA DIAZ <3
jessica, ur amazing
hahaha
uhm lets see
hahhaa ditching = NEVER AGAIN
alis house was mucho fun
thanks for putting up with me for a whole week
your a brave person [:
love you ali
hell week is comming up :o
i dont like it
stupid hogan
stupid choir
WHOO JV
hahaha
i know i suck
ill get better
(hopefully)
today was a good day
2 people know why
hehehehehe
it feels good getting this feeling again
now only if it went both ways
well yea
hmm what else
oh yea i made up my mind and no one can change it
i will not go to formal without a date
sorry dipali i made up my mind
i still love you though best friend [:
well thats all for now
tomorrow will hopefully be a good day
hopefully
[[:
peace out [:

ok

last post of the night i promise
hahaha



super cute
i love clips like these <3

favorite part of favorite disney movie numero uno [:



favorite part of favorite disney movie numero dos [:

i wish

you would look at me the way you looked at her
i wish you would actually talk to me
i wish you would say nice things about me
i wish you could be able to talk to me the way you talk to her
i wish you would wait for me at the end of class
i wish you would walk me to my classes
i wish you wouldnt ignore me
i wish you would just...get to know me

i knew it wouldnt last

i was so fucking proud of you
u were changing your life around
your a fucking idiot
"it was just one fucking night leave me alone"
one fucking night you go out get drunk and get in a fucking accident
you dumbshit
you could have killed urself
u could have killled someone else
someone with a family waiting for them at home
once a fucking drunk always a drunk

how does it feel knowing you were my hero
empahsis on the were
i wanted to be just like you
now i know your nothing but a fucking drunk
i looked up to you
i thought you were strong and that if you could get through it i could to
well congragulations you proved me wrong

Tengo un Amor <3

ok so theres this song called tengo un amor by toby love and its the cutest song in the world
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GcaonkLAUYY
so theres the link so you can see the music video
stupid user blocked the thingy so yea i can only give you the link
ok so since the song is in spanish
im gonna translate it for all u non spanish speakers
its super cute
youll love it if you like those mushy love songs [[;

I Have a Love

I know that things are far from perfect please dont walk away
give me a minute listen to what i have to say
i always put you number one in my life Never thought we'd say goodbye

My love, I miss you I feel you so distant,living without you kills me of pain I'm nothing without you, no I feel your hands caressing my skin I search for you, and I can't find you, my love I live missing you.

I have a love that only feeds from your voice it doesn't wish, anymore, to talk to my heart and it lives grieving your good-bye

i have a love that lives in every space within me that takes over my passion and carries me, flying to you.

You are my heaven you are my light you are my awakening I surrender everything to you, without regrets

cause its all about you and your future with me, girl. Its simple to see that this was destined to be

Embrace me Time is short and running Distance doesn't exist in my love I'll be yours throughout eternity

Loving you kissing you, you kissing me I swear I feel you I want to to die and love you again.

You know that I feel this love that only feeds from your voice it doesn't wish, anymore, to talk to my heart and it lives grieving your good-bye.

I have a love that lives in every space within me that takes over my passion and carries me, flying to you.

How to ask my heart to leave you?I feel your caresses;whenever you're not with me I close my eyes and see you I took shelter in your memories and as time goes by I'm afraid to lose them My heart is grieving since the day you left(couldn't understand this line, sorry)'when it's actually very sadI want to know if I'll really be able to love again I want to know if I'll always live to remember you.

i have a love that only feeds from your voice it doesn't wish, anymore, to talk to my heart and it lives, grieving your good-bye.

I have a love that lives in every space within methat takes over my passion and carries me, flying to you.




p.s theres a part in the music video thats like only music and some words (its like at the end)
in the originial song it says some other stuff so i translated the one from the original song cause its just super cute
if you saw the music video youll get what im talkin about

easier.....i think not

high school so far has been uhm crazy

idk things are changing well theve been changing throughout the years but this its different

when i ask people that graduated already what they liked most about oxford all of them said that they liked how everyone was a family

i dont feel that with our class i really dont

we were closer in 7th grade then....stuff happened

there was backstabbing, love, lies, and other things that got in the way of friendships

and over the summer i honestly thought everything was going to ger easier because we would be in high school and people would be more mature...man was i wrong

things have just been going all down hill we're not a family

familys dont hurt eachother on purpose

families dont bag on eachother

i know you guys who are reading this are like "angie your such a hypocrite" and its true i know it thats why im stopping

we're supposed to be a family guys lets act like it

forgive and forget right?

wanna know something else?

im jealous

exteremly jealous actually

of the other classes....they look and act like a family

yea i bet they've all had their ups and down but they've gotten through it

from the looks of it we're gonna go through the ups and not enjoy them because we're to busy worrying about the downs...get me?

we need to get our priorities straight

whats more important girls
a boy
or a best friend

whats more important guys
a girl
or a best friend

lets think about this for a minute

if you choose the boy or girl...then who are you going to go to when you break up
and dont tell me..."how do you know we're gonna break up" because chances are you will

im sorry but if you think your gonna marry the person your going out with right now you need to get a reality check it almost never happens (only for those special couples that know how to treat eachother right and thats no one in this grade trust me)

ok anyways back to what i was saying when you and your boy/girlfriend break up then who will you go to when you need help, when you need reassurence, when you just need someone

think about it guys

we're not gonna get anywhere if we dont shape up if we decide whats more important if we can all just seriously get along

we need to stop pointing out eacothers differences and imperfections and accept everyone for who they are

yea that sounds really cliche but its true many of the people in our grade have their self esteem lowered everytime a mean remark is said about them and it just its just not how a freaking family is supposed to be

we need to check ourselves....

What is love....Baby dont hurt me [:

L.O.V.E weve all used this word either when speaking to a relative, a friend, or a boy/girl friend. but when you say it to a boyfriend or girlfriend or someone that uve fallen hard for how do you know its love? i mean people say that its when you just know inside your heart you want to be with this person forever and ever and spend all your time with them. but i think its so much more than that. what i think love means is well...yes the feeling that you want to spend forever with that special someone but shouldnt it be more like how never ever would it cross your mind to hurt this person, and i mean if you do hurt them or cheat on them or whatever it proves that you dont love them becuase if you loved someone you wouldnt want to see them cry or be sad or mad all you would want for that person is happiness but if you hurt them by cheating or doing/saying something that you know would deeply hurt that person then you obviously dont love them and well when your in love with someone arent you supposed to smile when u think of them or hear there name not be all depressed cause they arent with you..i mean yea its ok to be sad cause they arent there with you but i mean your still supposed to be happy right cause you love them and you know that you wouldnt want that other person to be sad just cause you cant see eachother and you know that the other person would never ever do anything to hurt you and then you think of all teh good times youve had together and your just happy again...get me? idk maybe that was a little confusing but it made sense to me ahahaha...ok anyways back to what i was saying when you love someone i think your supposed to think about them all teh time correct? but like the good kind..yes there are 2 kinds theres the bad one thats like oh crap what are they doing are they talking to other girls/guys are they cheating on me and all taht other stuff see i dont think thats love if you have to worry about that kind of stuff.....ok anyways theres also the good kind of always thinking about that person like where you think about them and you hope their happy and you wonder if their having a good time and you dont care who there talking to cause you know for a fact that, that one person would never hurt you. and doesnt being in love also make you want to be the very best person you can be for that other person and prove to them that you can be a good boy/girl friend and not go around flirting with everyone you see or kissing other people just cuase there dares....idk ive never been in love but this is how i would want to feel....get me?....idk maybe im not making any sense but idk i just go around and i see people crying and being all sad and depressed and then the next day their like but i still love them blah blah blah i mean if a boy/girl friend would even dream of hurting you then they dont love you....get me? ahh idk i should stop cuase im pretty sure im not making any sense but idk just things on my mind

Dipali Patel <3

Dipali Patel my sister/my shoulder to cry on/my support/my hero/my advice giver/my best friend/my better half. i honestly have no idea what i would do without her. she has been there for me through so much and i cannot find the words to explain the gratitude i feel towards her but well im going to try. wow well we met a long ass time ago in like what 5th grade or 6th grade idk one of those ahahaha we met at th library....back when we actually had time to go to the library well anyways our wonderful friendship started there at one of the little kids tables and well we instantly CLICKED..idk we just kept talking and running into eachother there and then we found out that we were both gonna be going to oxford man oh man what a suprise we were like incredibly excited you have no idea ahahahaha well anyways our i guess you could say "adventures" started in 7th grade drama drama and more DRAMA but idk we werent really like close close close but i mean we were close and then like things happened and idk BOOM we were like insprable dont ask me how it happend cause i honeslty dont know ahahaha well anyways we talked about stuff and our guy problems and just like other drama and stuff and maybe thats how we got close well then 7th grade OMG I JUST REMEBERD we got close cuase of swasty yea thats it like we were friends and all but her and swasty were like how we are now and i was pretty close friends with swasty to so yea omg ok cool i feel better now ok ANYWAYS dip and i we always went to the bpm its pretty cool place and we just went to hang and talk and you know stuff like that well yea so then we started getting closer and closer and closer and by the end of 7th grade we were tiight [: so then 8th grade started and if it wasnt for her i swear i never would have made it through this year man shes been there for me through EVERYTHING with all my stupid drama and all the crazy shit i got myself into and all of my little crushes....man stupid guys...ok anyways she was always there backing me up 10000000000 percent and man i appreciate it so much no matter what happened she was there backing me up even if i was wrong she would tell me that i was wrong and i would accept it because it came from her and i know she wouldnt say anything to me just to start shit AHHH i cant get over everything shes done for me shes amazing man and i remeber one time ahahahaha we went to the buena park mall and we pigged OUT ahahahahaha i swear we ate like 3087654323456789876543 calories that day we were eating our troubles away man good times good times i love how i can tell her anything and she wont judge me i love how she understands things im going through ahahah i love how shes always like "i really dont know what your going through cause ive never been through it but im here ok" she at least makes an effort to understand i love that about her shes so understanding no matter what ahahahahahaha we always have the best times together to no matter what no matter where we always laugh and we also always have like a gazillion inside jokes by the day is over ahahahahaha we also have our bucket list with 117 things to do before we die and it took us a whole day at knotts to do it ahahahahahahahahaha man that things on that list lets just say we are going to have a very interesting life ahahaha man oh man. ok so anyways dipali shes seen me at my best and worst shes been there for me through the thick and thin and we have had our fair share of fights i mean they arent that bad but their still fights and they are all my fault (im sorry dip ]:) but we always get out of our fights stronger and knowing so much more about eachother and our friendship and ahahaha i think how after a fight things dont get awkward they get stronger....get me? oh and she always puts up with my major cases of pmsing man when i pms i pms again sorry dip its kind of sad i start getting mad over stupid things and then idk i say stuff and then idk but in the end she always ends up right there beside me shes a pretty amazing friend huh? ahahahahahahahaha we also go man shopping...we have run into some pretty HOT guys ahahahahaha very hot as a matter of fact [[: yup we love guys love love LOVE them cause well their just so hot ahaha ok getting off topic here...well weve been through pretty much the same thing with friends and parents and stuff like that like we get eachother..and like we have one of those friendships were we dont have to be together every second of the day to know everything about eachother...get me? ahahaha she loves taking pictures shes a camera whore [: its ok though becuase the camera ADORES her cause shes one HOT mama ahahah and she always has the funniest pick up lines so random to. we love taking pics at knotts in the photo booth except unlike normal people we plan the pic out so it comes out good. ahaha thats how we roll.. oh and we also have matching outfits pretty cool huh [[: sometimes we spend hours talking bout life and boys and parents and friends just hours getting things off of our chests and those convos are helpful cause i can tell her things that i can only really tell her its pretty cool....oh and we also have 2 other best friends ali and christa we have meetings to get things off our chests its really awesome but well her and i we have those meeting like almost everyday yea well shes also one of my heroes i look up to her shes my inspiration shes so strong and she comes out of her problems like a person always should...stronger and wiser she learns from her mistakes and shows me what a true friend is supposed to be like i love her advice cause its advice i can trust and shes just so strong and smart and pretty and one of the best friends i could ever have shes totally nice and sweet and amazingly awesome and no joke when i cry she crys when she crys i cry it makes us stronger <3>